JK Rowling Gives Me Hope... and Depression

Casual Vacancy, JK Rowling's new book, is out TODAY! 

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!

I am bummed out because I found out our Barnes and Noble opens at 9 and not 7 as I was (foolishly) hoping. I'll have to wait until like 4ish to buy the book....

Ugh.

BUT there is another reason I am excited for this, other than it is JKR (surprising, right?).

This book was like my reward, you know? Like, "Keep going till the 27th, just keep going, don't give up." It was like the deadline for me to really get my book amazing. 

I pictured finally reading the book to be an overwhelming experience, knowing it was for THIS book I worked -- and accomplished -- so much, and it was all coming to fruition.... JKR's book is almost bittersweet to me because my old MS ready is now on the back burner. I guess I didn't 'achieve' reading this book. It is a bit depressing knowing I will be reading this book, and I won't be close to my desired writing goal. My current WIP is also a mess.... I won't have the overwhelming experience I hoped for.

But this book will be like my dessert. It will be a treat, and I don't know if I earned it or not, but... sigh. I don't know. Will I ever reach my goal? Or am I just getting farther and farther away?

Hopefullythis book will motivate me to keep going. It's always a day-to-day living for us writers, right?

I am super excited, and sorry for the rant above, I don't know where it came from. I was supposed to be freaking out about the JKR book, gosh darn it!

BUT I AM SOOO EXCITED! Stupid US TODAY interviews keep teasing like freaking teasers.... and now BBC too! AGGG! I just want to read this book!!!!! I don't know how I'll be able to handle waiting till 4o'clock.... As you are reading this, the book is purchasable. I can't handle this.... I have to wait so many more hours. AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm getting a little crazy as the book draws nearer.

Are you guys excited? I am. Just a little.